#vanessa;
the average goddess,

the compulsive shopaholic,

the absentminded ditz,

and just a little insane.

240788-->leo;
ex-IJTP.4/nine2004;
cjc.1T05;
swimmer; drama mama; councillor;
laugh_out_loud247[at]hotmail[dot]com;

# resolutions;
1. participate more actively in CYF/Mustard Seed.
2. participate more in CCAs.
3. be a better older sister.
4. be a better daughter for once.
5. get good grades and maintain them.
6. listen, not talk. (this applies to class too!)
7. have a journal/diary.
8. be a friend to everyone.
9. remember important dates.
10. stay happy, even when the tears fall. :)

# linkage;
pinkstilettos;
temporary insanity;
guestbook;
poetry;


angels`
-friends

4/nine.
chij.
alyssa.
angie.
benjamin.
bernie.
bert.
brendan.
carol.
carol n.
charles.
cheryl.
chris.
corinne.
dalun.
darren.
elsa.
erika.
gen.
joachim.
jolene.
judette.
kimberly.
lester.
nat.
qibing.
roxy.
sam.
sean.
seb.
sheryl.
stephi.

-snaps
[Carolling]
[Dinner&Dance]
[CJC]
[Chinese New Year]
[Poetry]
[Misc]
[Sentosa]
[Thanksgiving Mass]
[The Rockafellaskank]
[CYF Camp]
[T8 Orientation]
[31st March]
[Elects Camp]
[Discover! Camp]

-thanks
blogger;cursor;angelfire; photobucket;music;

-memories
July 2003; August 2003; September 2003; October 2003; November 2003; December 2003; January 2004; February 2004; March 2004; April 2004; May 2004; June 2004; July 2004; August 2004; October 2004; November 2004; December 2004; January 2005; February 2005; March 2005; May 2005; June 2005;

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Sunday, February 20, 2005
-- keeping options open, and fingers crossed.
lose control.

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yesterday was fun! i met erika early in the morning, 'cause she was passing me tickets to the sajc funfair! went to the funfair with elsa, and saw jared, xiaoan and weijie there with their friends. it was great seeing corinne, tricia, nat choy, cheryl wee and even fidelis again! haha, i hope they're having fun in sa. ohh elsa and i got henna tattoos, but it pretty much sucked. haha. oh! and we also met gwendolyn cho! i remember her from PRIMARY SCHOOL, and she still remembers me! that was the funkiest. there was this girl, who came up to me in church and asked me if my name was vanessa. and i said yes, and though i recognized her almost immediately when i first saw her, i didn't know if she recognized me, so i didn't dare say anthing. and she was tatyana! this girl i used to look after in primary school 'cause i was a prefect and y'know, on wednesdays when the teachers have their meetings, we prefects have this unearthly job of looking after the primary ones/twos. can you imagine? she's 4 years my junior, and she remembers me from so long ago! it was an awesome feeling. :)

anyhoos. after that we went to harbour front shopping centre to shop! it was fun, we both had our 'agenda', though we didn't get to complete it. bought a really bright tote, and she bought hairbands and hair accessories i think. my new bag is so cute, all i have to do is look at it, and it cheers me up. haha. talking to elsa is great, she understands me even if i have trouble explaining it clearly. and it's really awesome that she can be hilarious (and totally wacko) at one moment, but serious and advisory the next. haha, hardly something you see in a lot of people. so yes, elsa! i cherish you! haha.

hmmm, went down to toa payoh after that 'cause she had to do preparation stuff with the children's league people. so i left her at it, and met sam, johanna, judette, angie, val, joachim and owen 'cause they'd just come back from checking out the campsite for cyf camp. i can't wait to go. :) but yeah, went for lunch with joa, val, judette and angie, and walked around for a bit after that. thanks angie, for talking to me and all. it was much appreciated. haha. :) joa and i had to leave soon after though, so we caught 157 back together. it was nice, talking to that dipshit again. haha, though it was brief, it was really nice and made my day better in a way. so thanks to you too, joa! :)

church in the evening was very very very funny. haha, we have this new priest who sounds like an overgrown chipmunk on speed. it was freaking funny! i was trying not to laugh the entire time he was speaking. but he seems nice, so that's alright. now the only problem i have with the priests in church is a very fat one. i CANNOT stand him! but anyway, i shall leave that rant to another day. went to my mum's club after that, and had dinner. we went bowling and we played pool! it was so fun, and i thrashed my brother completely. haha, won two games out of three that i played with him. haha! but i still lost to my mum. so yes, i've gotta work on that. haha. :)

anyways.

the results are coming out this friday, according to much speculation from everyone. i just get a whirl of emotions thinking about it, about whether i'm going to do well enough to stay in cjc, whether i'm going to meet my own expectations, whether i'll able to take econs, lit, history (and one more subject, 'cause my mum wants me to take 4 A-level subs.), whether elsa and tim and grace and karthi are staying, whether my own classmates are staying. it's just an entire bunch of fears. and on top of that, they're saying that people who received a letter that advertises teaching or something are those that scored between 15-20 for their Os. i didn't get anything like that, i don't think, but god. i hate this feeling -- not being able to control all aspects of my life. now i know how stephi feels, and yes, i'm a control freak.

anyways. it's already sunday. i'm not sure i can survive for the next week, but i'll try. gotta do my history studying now. big history test on wednesday, i'm planning to ace it.

ps. thanks lun, for your message last night. it made a lot of sense, and it came at a time when i needed reassurance most. -big hugs- love you loads dear.

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Don't count on me, to let you know when.
Don't count on me, I'll do it again.
Don't count on me, it's the point you're missing.
Don't count on me, cause I'm not listening.

she smiled
at 10:02 AM


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