the average goddess,
the compulsive shopaholic,
the absentminded ditz,
and just a little insane.
; drama mama; councillor;
1. participate more actively in CYF/Mustard Seed.
2. participate more in CCAs.
3. be a better older sister.
4. be a better daughter for once.
5. get good grades and maintain them.
, not talk. (this applies to class too!)
7. have a journal/diary.
8. be a friend to everyone.
9. remember important dates.
10. stay happy, even when the tears fall. :)
Sunday, January 30, 2005
back blogging. :) sunday's over, and monday looms. haha, and like most mondays i'm looking forward to going back to school. :) 1t05 may not be as mad as the other classes (i think we're pretty good students actually!) but we entertain ourselves all the same. haha. and i haven't done a stitch of work since friday. goodness me, i'm losing my resolution already? haha. ooh, just changed my skin too. i love this one! :)
reflecting on today, i think the best thing to say about today is that it's over. (as in, today) i'm ready to close this awful phase and move on to better days ahead. i've been musing about most stuffs today on this sorta thingamajig. haha, vanessa the complex thinker? wahaha! pop quiz, you guys. say you're with someone, and you can have two wishes (yes, it's a fantastical sort of thing.) either...
a) a wish for their happiness -- not only for now, but even for when the relationship is over.
b) a wish that your relationship will stay and blossom in years to come.
which would YOU pick?
oh, and i found this poem i wrote last year. i think it was erika who gave me the line "who painted the moon black?"
and from that line i came up with my own poem. haha, for those who don't already know, i love poems, both writing and reading them. :)
COLOURS - © vanann '04
who painted the moon black,
and the sun a shining blue?
who tainted the sky so grey
and all the flowers too?
colours in this world evade me;
illusions have disappeared and died.
and all the colours will reutrn, she tells me,
when all my tears have been cried.
you know how people always say, it's not easy making relationships work? somehow i guess we just don't really register what they say or take it for genuine, perhaps because at that time things were still going fine. well i guess today and yesterday was an example of that. i've done things that hurt you, and you've done things to hurt me too. but now that the dust has settled, i guess the both of us can see what really matters here, eh? you're what matters to me, and you always will. more than anything in the world, i pray for your happiness. even if this doesn't last forever, i want you to be happy. always! haha. things may not always be easy, but i know that we'll work through it. we always have.
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