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the average goddess,

the compulsive shopaholic,

the absentminded ditz,

and just a little insane.

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ex-IJTP.4/nine2004;
cjc.1T05;
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# resolutions;
1. participate more actively in CYF/Mustard Seed.
2. participate more in CCAs.
3. be a better older sister.
4. be a better daughter for once.
5. get good grades and maintain them.
6. listen, not talk. (this applies to class too!)
7. have a journal/diary.
8. be a friend to everyone.
9. remember important dates.
10. stay happy, even when the tears fall. :)

# linkage;
pinkstilettos;
temporary insanity;
guestbook;
poetry;


angels`
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4/nine.
chij.
alyssa.
angie.
benjamin.
bernie.
bert.
brendan.
carol.
carol n.
charles.
cheryl.
chris.
corinne.
dalun.
darren.
elsa.
erika.
gen.
joachim.
jolene.
judette.
kimberly.
lester.
nat.
qibing.
roxy.
sam.
sean.
seb.
sheryl.
stephi.

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[31st March]
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[Discover! Camp]

-thanks
blogger;cursor;angelfire; photobucket;music;

-memories
July 2003; August 2003; September 2003; October 2003; November 2003; December 2003; January 2004; February 2004; March 2004; April 2004; May 2004; June 2004; July 2004; August 2004; October 2004; November 2004; December 2004; January 2005; February 2005; March 2005; May 2005; June 2005;

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Saturday, July 17, 2004
today is my veryvery irritating junior's birthday! hahaha. happy birthday charlene! but she's mad eh. supposed to have marche lunch (treated by mrs tang) after flag day, and she didn't turn up for it! but i think the rest of the swimmers went anyway; i couldn't go 'cause of tuition at 1.30. so yupps. went for flag day today instead of the lit symposium which i reallyreallyreally wanted to go for. blame it on my own kiasuness and poor memory i suppose. :( hahaha. and i've got the most annoying juniors in the world! -pokes pq&cheryl- hahaha. mmmm OH! and let me tell you about flag day. it was TERRIBLE! only 3 hours but i felt like i'd been on my feet for a day. and i was so sick of repeating myself!

"Excuse me, would you like to donate? *cheesysmile*"


ARRRRGGGGHHHHHH! hahaha. and there was this man who insisted we were being paid for doing this and therefore he won't donate. -rolls eyes- men! hahaha. and people can be SO rude! i mean, it's alright if you smile and say 'no thanks' or say 'i'm sorry i donated already' or something like that, but i absolutely completely totally utterly HATE IT when they just walk right pass you without the slightest deference to you! that's so freaking rude! like you're not important and bloody invisible. hahaha. well. i shall try to help fellow flag day-ers next time! hahaha. i shall not imitate these barbarians. :)

anyway. after that, went to have lunch (walked to the interchange with tricia tan. sounds silly but i miss talking to her a lot! hahaha. oh well.) and then spent the remainder of the time absorbing air-con in the library and explaining the book angels and demons to shawn. hahaha it's a damn GOOD book! but as carol has told me before, not for those who have weak faith in the Catholic church. it'll just make you doubt them more. haha. ooh! here's an excerpt-->

(speech made by the camerlengo)
to the illuminati, adn to those of science, let me say this. You have won the war. the wheels have been in motion for a long time. your victory has been inevitable. never before has it been as obvious as it is at this moment. science is the new God. Medicine, electronic communications, spcae travel, genetic manipulation... these are the miracles about which we now tell our children. These are the miracles we herald as proof that science will bring us the answers. The ancient stories of immaculate conceptons, burning bushes and parting seas are no longer relevant. God has become obsolete. Science has won the battle. We concede.

But science's victory has cost every one of us. And it has cost us deeply. Science may have alleviated the miseries of disease and drudgery and provided an array of gadgetry for our entertainment and convenience, but it has left us in a world without wonder. Our sunsets have been reduced to wavelengths and frequencies. The complications of the universe have been shredded into mathematical equations. Even our self-worth as human beings has been destroyed. Science proclaims that Planet Earth and its inhabitants are a meaningless speck in the grand scheme. A cosmic accident. Even the technologies that promises to unite us, divide us. Each of us is now electronically connected to the globe, and yet we feel utterly alone. We are bombarded with violence, division, fracture, and betrayal. Skeptism has become a virtue. Cynicism and demand for proof has become enlightened thought. Is it any wonder that humans now feel more depressed and defeated than they have at any point in human history? Does science hold anything sacred? Science looks for answers by probing our unborn fetuses. Science even psumes to rearrange our own DNA. It shatters God's world into smaller and smaller pieces in quest of meaning... and all it fins is more questions.

The ancient war between science and religion is over. You have won. But you have not won fairly. You have not won by providing answers. You have won by so radically reorienting our society that the truths we once saw as signposts now seem inapplicable. Religion cannot keep up. Scientific growth is exponential. It feeds on itself like a virus. Every new breakthrough opens doors for new breakthroughs. Mankind took thousands of years to progress from the wheel to the car. Yet only decades from the car into space. Now we measure scientific progress in weeks. We are spinning out of control. The rift between us grows deeper and deeper, and as religion is left behind, people find themselves in a spiritual void. We cry out for meaning. And believe me, we do cry out. We see UFOs, engage in chanelling, spirit contact, out-of-body experiences, mindquests - all these are unashamedly irrational. They are the desperate cry of the modern soul, lonely and tormented, crippled by its inability to accept meaning in anything removed from technology.

Science, you say, will save us. Science, I say, has destroyed us. Since the days of Galileo, the church has tried to slow the relentless march of science, sometimes with misguided means, but always with benevolent intention. Even so, the temptations are too great for man to resist. I warn you, look around yourselves. The promises of science have not been kept. Promises of efficency and simplicity have bred nothing but pollution and chaos. We are a fractured and frantic species... moving down a path of destruction.

Who is this God science? Who is the God who offers his people power but no moral framework to tell you how to use that power? What kind of God gives a child fire but does not warn the child of its dangers? The language of science comes with no signposts about good and bad. Science textbooks tell us how to create nuclear reaction and yet they contain no chapter asking us if it is a good or bad idea.

To science, I say this. The church is tired. We are exhausted from trying to be your signposts. Our resources are drying up from our campaign to be the voice of balance as you plow blindly on in the quest for smaller chops and larger profits. We ask not why you will not govern yourselves, but how can you? Your world moves so fast that if you stop for even an instant to consider the implications of your actions, someone more efficient will whip past you un a blur. So you move on. You proliferate weapons of mass destructions, but it is the Pope who travels the world beseeching leaders to use restraint. You clone living creatures, but it is the church reminding us to consider the moral implications of your actions. You encourage people to interact on phones, video screens and computers, but it is the church who opens doors and reminds us to commune in person as we were meant to do. You even murder unborn babies in the name of research that will save lives. Again, it is the church who points out the fallacy of this reasoning.

And all the while, you proclaim the church is ignorant. But who is more ignorant? The man who cannot define lightning, or the man who does not respect its awesome power? This church is reaching out to you. Reaching out to everyone. Show me proof that there is a God, you say. I say use your telescopes to look to the heavens, and tell me how there could NOT be a God! You ask what does God look like. I say, where did that question come from? The answers are one and the same. Do you not see God in your science? How can you miss Him! You proclaim that even the slightest change in the force of gravity or the weight of an atom would have rendered our universe a lifeless mist rather than our magnificent sea of heavenly bodies ,and yet you fail to see God's hand in this? Is it really so much easier to believe that we simply chose the right card in a deck of billions? Have we become so spiritually bankrupt that we would rather believe in mathematical impossibility than in a power greater than us?

Whether or not you believe in God, you must believe this. When we as a species abandon our trust in the power greater than us, we abandon our sense of accountability. Faith... all faiths... are admontions that there is something we cannot understand, something to which we are accountable... With faith we are accountable to each other, to ourselves, and to a higher truth. Religion is flawed, but only because man is flawed. If the outside world could see this church as I do... looking beyond the ritual of these walls... they would see a modern miracle... a brotherhood of imperfect, simple souls wanting only to be a voice of compassion in a world spinning out of control.

Are we obsolete? Are these men dinosaurs? Am I? Does the world really need a voice for the poor, the weak, the opressed, the unborn child? Do we really need souls like these who, though imperfect, spend their lives imloring each of us to read the signposts or morality and not lose our way?

Tonight we are perched on a precipice. None of us can afford to be apathetic. Whether you see this evil as Satan, corruption, or immorality... the dark force is alive and growing every day. Do not ignore it. The force, though mighty, is not invincible. Goodness can prevail. Listen to your hearts. Listen to God. Together we can step back from this abyss.


-raptured- i'm in awe of dan brown.

oooh. on a lighter note, i'm addicted to 'accidentaly in love' on qibing's blog! -dances around the room- x)

she smiled
at 9:42 PM


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