the average goddess,
the compulsive shopaholic,
the absentminded ditz,
and just a little insane.
; drama mama; councillor;
1. participate more actively in CYF/Mustard Seed.
2. participate more in CCAs.
3. be a better older sister.
4. be a better daughter for once.
5. get good grades and maintain them.
, not talk. (this applies to class too!)
7. have a journal/diary.
8. be a friend to everyone.
9. remember important dates.
10. stay happy, even when the tears fall. :)
Saturday, March 06, 2004
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i feel lost. just read christine's blog. yeahh. maybe i am screwing my life up. maybe i am being hypocritical. maybe i'm not trying hard enough. maybe for once in my life, i'm trying to find a meaning. maybe i'm just tired of trying. maybe i want god to be there. maybe i just want to be left alone. maybe i don't ever want that to happen. maybe i'm scared of losing my friends. maybe i'm just scared. maybe i want to make my friends happy. maybe i just don't know how to do that. maybe i want people to believe in me. maybe i should do something about that first. maybe i'm being stupid. maybe i am stupid. maybe i want to go back to the past. maybe i should realise there's no way that's going to happen. maybe i should wake up. maybe i should pray this is all a long nightmare. maybe there's someone. maybe there isn't. maybe i wish i wasn't quite so idiotic and blur. maybe i want to change... but do you know that? maybe i wish i could answer your questions. maybe i wish you'd never asked. maybe i am fucked. maybe i wish i knew how to change.
maybe i'm trying. but i don't know how.
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