the average goddess,
the compulsive shopaholic,
the absentminded ditz,
and just a little insane.
; drama mama; councillor;
1. participate more actively in CYF/Mustard Seed.
2. participate more in CCAs.
3. be a better older sister.
4. be a better daughter for once.
5. get good grades and maintain them.
, not talk. (this applies to class too!)
7. have a journal/diary.
8. be a friend to everyone.
9. remember important dates.
10. stay happy, even when the tears fall. :)
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
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Not Really. [copyright van ann '03]
the sun is shining brighter today
but to me the golden rays burn cold.
the birds are singing, the flowers are in bloom,
but the colours of the world seem so old.
friends kissed me on my cheek today,
and told me how much they appreciated me.
and while i hugged them back, and smiled,
my heart wasn't really there, i hope they didn't see.
YOU smiled and asked for my number today,
and i know i really should be overjoyed.
but the smile i gave YOU didn't reach my eyes
and my heart was left, of feelings devoid.
my heart is empty, my skies are grey,
i feel unbearably numb.
my eyes do not see, my ears do not hear,
my throat has been struck silently dumb.
i know i should be happy, i've so much to live for,
so much left yet to enjoy and do.
but somehow sadness overwhelmes me.
i don't see tomorrows anymore.
and my only truth is you.
at 4:38 PM